On this Mother’s Day, I find myself thinking about my mother and what her passing meant to me. She’s been gone for eighteen years now. My dad died when I was comparatively young – only 30. I had my mother for many years after he passed away. After she died, I felt a keen since of mortality at my core. There was no one left older than me. That meant I would, at some point, be next. You really feel that when both parents are gone as they were in my case after my mother died.
When your mother dies, you feel quite alone. Even though I was closer to my father than to my mother, I felt more alone after she died. You never quite get over losing your parents and I think I can safely say, your mother. I think that may be because your mother nurtured you before you were born and immediately thereafter.
Mother’s Day also revers the maternal bonds as well as being a celebration of Mothers. I don’t know a lot about maternal bonds. My mother did her best, even though she was plagued by serious illness all of her life or the portion of her life in which I knew her. We didn’t have the strong bonds many daughter’s and mother’s have.
I hope every Mother out there has a wonderful Mother’s Day today and that you get to spend it with your children!
My parents, minus one sister of my mom’s, are the only ones left in their immediate families. It is a very lonely feeling, even though they have us 3 kids…it’s different. I’m not sure one ever gets over the loss of those they ‘grew up’ with, so to speak. A reminder to cherish any time that we are given together.
My family is completely gone except for one very elderly aunt. Same is true for my husband. It is a very strange feeling to be sure.